Today, early in the morning, I was with some of the SITU Family members. Jin Wei then mentioned that yesterday ( 21/01/2009) a boy was trying to put his arm onto C2's shoulder. But C2 evaded him and pushed away his shoulder. In the process of pushing away the arm, C2 was described by Jin Wei as smiling.

Now i have 2 thinkings.

1) Negative: C2 was enjoying it, but it was the right way to push the boy's arm away.

2) Positive: C2 was not enjoying it, but in fact disliking it. She smiled due to her shyness.

Perhaps I was having this "jealous" feelings, but maybe I'm not, maybe I'm hating her?. But one thing's for sure is that i do not want to lose her, but i did not have the dare to confess to her. Most probably I do not want to risk of getting rejected and hurt myself. What should I do? Is there anything I can do about it?

Maybe I should have faith in C2, but I did not even know C2, therefore I can only have this hypothesis.

If I do not want to lose C2, is this considered as me being greedy?

I said that I will not want to think about C2 for the time being, yet I just cannot stop that. Should I become stronger and just stop everything about C2?

Labels: ACTS

Posted - 4:30 PM