Every time I did something good, there will be a voice telling me to stop doing it. Every time I think
about my SITU friends or any other friends, there will be a voice telling me to stop being good to them and it also says the bad things that my friends could do to me. I love to help people, but now, I am starting to reduce my frequency of helping my friends due to the voice. The voice will also tell me that my friend will never ever care about me no matter how good i treat them especially when I am feeling low. The voice had already said the bad things that all my friend could do to me.

In the past, the voice will never say any bad things about C2. But now, it will say that it's impossible for us to be together. That hurts me quite a lot. It looks like the voice inside me is disliking C2. I cannot allow the C2 in my heart to be damaged as that's what that drives me currently. I need to have other plans in order to take on the voice. So i guess I need to first strengthen my drive. I cannot rely on my family as I have never ever told them anything that I have been through at school ( they know absolutely nothing). What can I rely on? Friendship?

Labels: Voice

Posted - 4:14 AM