Today, I proposed to C2. Sadly, I was sort of rejected. She told me that she wants to stay single for the time being and ask not to waste my time on her. Upon hearing this, I was initially sad and disappointed, but shortly after that, I decided to wait for her. She then asked me if I will still wait for her if it is going to be very long, I answered her that I will wait for as long as I can wait.

Voice compared me and Nixon and concludes that I am inferior to him. Am I really inferior to him?

Labels: ACTS, C2

Posted - 12:57 AM



The main plan is almost complete, all the necessary information are inside there and the most important is currently on standby and I will start it on Friday.

Labels: ACTS, C2

Posted - 3:55 AM



The side-plan ( the additional plan that is supposed to be used for proposing to C2) is initiating smoothly. But then, an error just rise. The side-plan requires a box to hold the materials inside but I cannot find any shop that sells a box. The initiate day is this friday ( 29/05/2009), that means that I do not have the time to look for it at shopping malls like IMM or Jurong Point. So, the only thing that i can do is to substitute it or to find some other ways. Let's hope it will go smoothly...

Labels: ACTS, C2

Posted - 2:51 AM

This morning, Kah Shin told me to help her check an IP address.

V: She's using you to help her get what she wants, so you should not help her.
A: But, my protocol is to help people in whatever way I can whenever they need help.
V: If you continues to be like this,
1) They/She will be dependent on you, and that will be a disadvantage for you.
2) Your time and energy will be wasted just to help them/she, and this is not the first time.

I am currently in a dilemma, but I have to postpone it as I have to prepare for the important thing.

Labels: ACTS

Posted - 2:35 AM



I am going to propose to C2, the date should be this coming Friday. My main plan ( a.k.a. main material) is almost ready, with only a bit of adjustments that need to be made that I will make at Friday. But I still need to prepare a side plan ( a.k.a. main material) to support it. I am still planning of what to include in the side plan. Side plan requires some budget which I need to start saving for if I were to initiate it. Voice said that even after what I have done, what are the chances that I will be accepted? Is it worth it? I do not have the answer to that question. But I will try my best so that I will have nothing to regret. Hope that everything will go smoothly...

Labels: ACTS, C2

Posted - 3:25 AM



Today, I took part in the Inter-Class Competition which I was looking forward to since Wednesday. I sign up for the sec 3 males singles and was informed by Ms Doreen Tan that my first opponent was Ricky Tan Hai Qing from class 3P2. I was told by my classmate, Kasturi, that Ricky was good in sports. Thus I was so nervous as it was a knockout match and that means that if you lose, you're out of the game. Before the match started, we were allowed to stroke (sort of warm-up in which you just hit the ball to him and he hits it back to you) with each other, so I let him win all the strokes so as to let him think that I am weak and hopefully he will underestimate me ( I did this as I thought that he was good in badminton). As the real match starts, I was chosen to serve the the shuttlecock first. So I served it all the way to the back of the court and I thought he would return it, but unfortunately he was not able to return it. After seeing this, I was so glad that what Kasturi said about Ricky being a good badminton was wrong. So the game continued and it was an easy game for me. The match ended with 21:7 within 10 minutes. I let him get 2 points while the rest were all the mistakes that I made. But at one point, he was actually quite smart as he hit the ball to a place that was hard for me to reach and I was totally stunt by that, but I managed to hit it back and then he continued to hit to another spot where I almost could not reach. As he did not expect me to reach it, I earned the point after hitting it back the second time.

My next opponent was Winston from class 3V6. I did not expect to see him in the semi-finals. So I played with him. I was actually leading in the first half of the match, but in the second half of the match he caught up with me and overtook me. The match ended with 21: 16 with Winston as the winner. I guess the weak point that I had was that I lack of stamina to sustain the long battle. We were hitting our hardest ( i guess) and we were making each other running around in the court and that costs me a lot of stamina. Despite the fact that I lost to Winston, I am glad that we were able to play seriously with each other, it felt almost like we have never played seriously with each other before.

After my match with Winston, Winston's next opponent was Chin Tat. So he played with him and Winston won with 21: 16. Winston said that he made a lot of mistake in that game and I told him that it was probably due to his stamina not fully recovered. So Winston got first in the Sec 3 males Singles.

After this, I expected there to be another match so as to determine the second and third position between Chin Tat and I. But there was no more match left. I think that it was unfair as Chin Tat only need to play with one player to get into the finals. This makes it look like I am inferior to Chin Tat but the fact was we did not even get to play to determine who is better. But, perhaps this is what they call unlucky.

Next was the Mixed doubles, Jin Kai and Sophia were representing 3V6 and their first opponents were from 3S5. So I was standing outside the court looking for the weakness of their opponent and I told them some. But in the end they lose with 21: 16. This was actually more than expected for me. So, I suppose they will get the third position.

After Jin Kai's match we were discussing about the match and suddenly Saifuddin asked me to substitute him for the mixed doubles. Their opponent were 3S5 and Chin Tat substituted for Benjamin. So I agreed and we played the match. For the first half of the match, it was easy using the doubles trick serve that I created, I felt sorry for Chin Tat's partner as I accidentally smashed at her hands twice. In the second half of the match, I saw that Chin Tat's eyes and face were different and looks as though he was really pissed off. But in the end we won with 21: 15. So in the end our class got 1st position for the Sec 3 Females Singles and Mixed Doubles and 3rd position for Males Singles.

After the doubles match, Chin Tat came to me and said that actually I should not use the doubles serving and serve it to the back, I nodded my head. Jin Kai heard the conversation and asked me if what I did not illegal and I told him that it was totally fine as just that doubles serving was used to serve to the front and not the back. But that was what normal person would expect (including Chin Tat). But playing badminton requires technique and deception, more importantly doing what others would expect.

I felt that I still have some unsettles business with Chin Tat. But I guess will not do anything about it.

Labels: ACTS

Posted - 8:48 PM



Lesson 1: Strengths & Weaknesses

V: Everything have its own strengths and weaknesses, this theory is applicable for humans but not applicable for me. Now first thing that you need to do in order to defeat Subject-N, you need to discover your strengths and weaknesses.

A: Okay, so how do I find/discover my strengths and weaknesses?

V: You can start by trying out different stuffs like using different styles for your lifestyles.

A: Okay. But why don't you just tell me what are my strengths and weaknesses?

V: If I give you a fish, you will not feel hungry for one day.
If I teach you how to fish, you will not feel hungry for your entire life.
See the difference now?

A: I see. Thanks for your advices.

V: No need to thank me, by doing this. You will be more worthy for me. Remember, my goal is to be the strongest. Why don't you have this as your goal too? But of course, you can only the the second strongest for your goal.

A: Becoming strongest or not have nothing to do with increasing the chances for me to be with C2.

V: Whatever. But there's such saying:
Life is not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.
Thus when I say becoming strong, it also means being able to endure the hardness of life. That is also why I said that your friends especially the SITUs are weak and useless.

Labels: ACTS, C2, Voice

Posted - 3:23 AM



I hereby announced that I will let Voice out ( meaning my personalities will change to his and he will take over me) for 5 minutes daily. In return, Voice will lessen the harassment that he do on me.

So in the 5 minutes, you were somehow hurt or angered by Voice, please try to make do with it. But I will try to limit the things that Voice can do in the 5 minutes.

Labels: ACTS, Voice

Posted - 1:14 AM

Mid-Year Exams are finally over. Things are more relax starting from today. I am currently chatting with C2. I just asked her whether if it is alright for me to call and chat with her and her reply was: "dont wan la". With these three words in addition to Voice's repeated persuasion ( to ask me to give up i nC2), I am beginning to doubt myself. Am I wasting my time, or should I say that am I doing something that will never have an end. What are the chances of C2 accepting me?

V: Less than 40% from all your knowledge about her. Your first target is to at least beat Nixon, if you cannot, you chances of succeeding is less than 4%.

Labels: ACTS

Posted - 1:07 AM



Today, I finally confessed my feelings to...C2. She said that she did not know me and in the end, I revealed my name to her. Then later she suddenly appeared offline, now what? I am beginning to regret revealing my identity to her. I planned to act normal ( default setting: DO NOT LOOK AT HER FOR MORE THAN 1 SECOND) when seeing her in the canteen tomorrow. She may be asking her friends all about this person " Sim Kian Boon ". Let's hope that this matter does not blow up.

Labels: ACTS, C2

Posted - 12:20 AM



V: See, I expected and told you that you will lose no matter what. But there is one thing which I do not understand, why did you wait for Ken and cheer him on?
A: He is my classmate, I will not abandon those that are within my circles of concern.
V: But you still abandon him in the end right.
A: ...
V: Do you know why you lose to others in everything? It is because you are weak. And the only solution is to become stronger by joining me.
A: Joining you will make me stronger?
V: Yes. Join me and we will work towards being the strongest/ the best.
A: But somehow I think that that is not what I want.
V: There is nothing more you will wish want other than becoming stronger. Things like emotions will not make you stronger but instead, it will make you weaker as you depends on your emotions. Your drive must not be related to emotions except for hatred.

Labels: ACTS

Posted - 9:09 PM