This morning, I was informed by S7 that she told her boyfriend regarding my confession.. S7 told me that her boyfriend was not angry, but in fact he smiled when she told him the information.. This results in the guilt (that I had overcome in order for me to confess) rising up and is drowning me in it. Thus below are the conversations during my self-consultation.

X: What do you suggest that I do?
V: Follow your heart.
X: Even if it means that I will hurt others?
V: Love has no right or wrong.
X: But if possible, I will not hurt others. I do not wish for history to repeat itself.
V: If that's the case, how are you suppose to live?
V: You're living for yourself and not for others. So, go ahead and do what you think/feel is right.
X: What's right and what's wrong?
X: Hurting others is wrong...being selfish is wrong...dragging people down with you is wrong....
V: Well, that's life. Choices have consequences and part of life is to live with the consequences.
V: Life is not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.
X: ...
V: Expressing your feelings ain't wrong. In fact, the other party deserves to know since it concerns him/her. So, you're doing the right thing too.
X: So you mean I have to do the wrong thing in order to do the right thing?
V: If you see it that way, I have nothing to say. But just remember not to regret what you did or what you did not do in the future.
X: What can I do now?
V: You can give up. You can wait. You can chase her using the 50% deal. You can chase her with everything you've got.
X: I'm not choosing the first choice.
V: Now we're talking.
V: I will suggest the last two.
X: With everything I' have...it's indecent right? Anyway, she won't like that either...
V: You won't know unless you try. Why shouldn't you give your full in what you do.
X: but I have to consider her side too?
V: Well, it's your call. Your decisions results in your consequences. Make the wise decision.
X: ...Thanks anyway...it's rare to see you in such a good form...
V: If I were to be good, it is a bad omen for you.

Labels: ACTS, S7

Posted - 1:38 AM