These following messages occurred on 07/05/2010.

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Me: Yo. Eaten? How's your 'free day' today? Whatcha doin now? Free to bring Cutie out for a walk?

S7: Oh hi, yah. I just went to the library, going home now. XD

Me: Oh...Haha. Are you in a hurry? As i'm thinking of waiting for you at the playground and chat with you and perhaps accompany to walk Cutie if you're free.

S7: Oh, haha, i'm on the bus.

Me: Yeah, so, do you think my ideas suits your time table? Is it possible? If yes, I'll get going now...

S7: Uh, no la, cuz i'm not feelin too good... I wanna get home and sleep it off...

Me: Oh...okay.in that case, take good care. Have a good rest. Get well soon. Hm...which route are you taking to walk home? After you've alighted that is.

S7: Oh, nevermind, i'm home already.

Me: I see. Okay then. I shall not disturb you any further. Take care, okay? Here's a pre-good night. Sweet dreams. I'll text you again tomorrow. I...just rest well.

S7: Okie, thanks.

Me: Hey, when are you able to come tomorrow?

Me: You don't have to thank me. As your friend/good friend/brother/chaser, we want you to be healthy. So, just lie back, relax and enjoy your sleep.

Me: Great news. Your bro has just got a new pair of shoe. I wonder how well it'll perform..sadly the colour does not resemble the old one. Hope you're resting well.

S7: Oh congrats. And yah i was.

Me: Eh? Yeah, thanks. You're awake already? I thought you'll sleep till tomorrow. So, are you feeling better? Whatcha doin now?

S7: Nothing la...

Me: Then go back and get more sleep. But...i suppose it's rare for you to have nothing to do? So how recovered are you?

S7: Slightly more than half i suppose.

Me: Well...it's good that you're partially recovered. What's your event line-ups tomorrow? So, do you think you can come tomorrow? What's your sickness anyway?

Me: Sorry, i meant badminton on sunday. You should sleep for long hours tonight. That way, you'll be fully energised. Or, you can exercise more through badminton?

Me: Okay, I'll be looking forward to seeing you on that day. So, are you turning in soon? After all, my panda sis needs more sleep after a week's work. Right? Haha

Me: Was it because that i changed the way i speak that caused you to change the way you speak too? If only you've changed: great job. You're more lively now. Nice.

Me: It's okay. In short, i like the way you speak now. E.g. Less frequent of 'whatev'. You're improving, keep it up. As your bro, it's good to have a sis like you.

Me: There you go again. Are you that easily speechless? Anyway, how's Derrick, Fabian & Adrian?

Me: Good to know that. Anyway, can you name me some areas which i need to improve on?

Me: Still can't get into that past yet huh...hm...why don't you do that? Even if you've never did that for Derrick, why don't you try it out on me? Guilt strike...

Me: Oh...well, i follow statistics. I'm as dead as numbers. I just realised that and i'm trying to switch to instincts. Sorry, if i annoyed you just now.

S7: Its okay i'm kinda used to people not getting me.

Me: Is it correct that Derrick is daring enough to 'poke' you at every point he sees. As in he's daring to do all sorts of stuffs to you. Hold on, I'm getting washed.

S7: He only dares to do that because he's my boyfriend and intimacy is not a problem, whereas if normal guy friends try anything closer than social interactivity norm, i get annoyed. If you wanna talk statistics i have plenty. Lay it all down, nice and clear. I do not tolerate unsupported evidence and will not entertain poorly parsed hypotheses. I'm a science person, and unlike plenty of girls out there, i have a brain and i can use it pretty damn well. I don't usually talk like this cuz i tend to scare people off, but I'm getting the impression that you think you could try physical intimacy with me, and i do not appreciate that. I am not implying that you should stop completely, but if you want a relatively higher chance, i advise you to look underneath the underneath of social networks before laying down a set opinion of things. I am sorry if this upsets you, but these are the facts. If i were to be extremely blunt, this is the precise reason why people find it hard to understand me. I am not who you think i am. You think i am who i impress upon you to think me to be.

Me: Haha. Yeah, that's the true form of my sis that i'm trying to look for. And relax, i know i'm talking about intimacy recently, i'm not intending to do that.

S7: You'd better not be. I have an extremely high EQ and a relatively high IQ, i tend to get touchy sometimes. For future reference, i don't like machoistic ideas and egoist tendencies present in guys. Gender bias is also completely unappreciated. I'm smart and i damn well know how to think for myself and know what i'm doing. I don't need a second mom.

Me: Nah, that won't happen. After all, i'm a male. Haha. So, anything you wish to add on? Please do speak your mind.

S7: I can sense that you're entertaining me and at the same time pumping me for information. I do not appreciate being used. Like i said, i have a high EQ. Do not, i repeat, do-frickin-NOT underestimate me for a little girl who can't help herself or think straight, and who can be manipuated and controlled. Because if you do, you are damn wrong. Good night.

Me: I guess Voice was right after all...why didn't i listen to its advise...i guess i'm extremely bad at expressing myself through virtual communication.Good night.


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The following messages occurred on 08/05/2010.

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S7: Yellow bro, sorry i snapped yesterday.. ^^

Me: I...'m perhaps still in the trauma...but that's the true you right? How're you feeling now? I'm sorry if i sounded too off the usual. I'll watch myself.

S7: True, but pissed off me. ^^ and no, its not your fault, i'm just extremely sensitive to... What people are thinking le. XD

Me: Would you believe if i say that i do not intend to have physical contact with you & i am not using you to gather data or some sort?

S7: Well, as for now, no. XD you sound patronising. Anywaes, don't brood on it much, i can handle.

Me: Okay, I'll just let nature take it's course. But i sincerely apologise for yesterday. Anyway, welcome back. How're you feeling now? Wanna come tomorrow?

S7: It's not the mistake. It's whether you keep doin it. And yah, tmr definitely playin.

Me: How about 7.30am at KFC? I'll inform Fabian if you're find with it.

S7: I dunno, anything also can...

Me: Okay. So, have you eaten?

S7: Yes.

Me: Can't seem to contact him through his handphone and house phone. I'll try again later. Winston might be able to join us tomorrow.

S7: Oh. Okay, then good la. At least got one extra player.

Me: Oh man...Winston just called and told me that he'll only come at 9am for the CC training. Do you happen to have Adrian's number? I want to inform him. Thanks

S7: Yah. Saying thanks before actually getting conformation is a way of pressurising someone into doing things which i don't particularly appreciate. I don't have his number. Sorry.

Me: I'm sorry for pressuring you. That perspective of thinking, I'll take note. Is it alright to thank you now for pointing my errors? I appreciate it a lot.

Me: Fabian's at his cousin's house, so he cannot make it for tomorrow.

Me: Now that we're the only ones left, do you still want to play early? I'm alright with it though.

S7: Not really. And there's no need to apologise. Its not your fault you accidentally piss me off. No offense, just statin facts.

Me: Uh...the answer for 'not really' is for which question? Do you mean i just pissed you off again?

S7: No, for the apology, i just wanted to tell you that random people piss me off for no reason. And not really for the morning. Not feeling up to waking up early.

S7: I'll be at kfc at 7.30. Yah. Don't bother pickin me up, i'm fine on my own, yah? XD thxx and nites

Me: You're coming? Okay. I'll see you there tomorrow. Good night.

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07/05/2010:

What happened was beyond expectation and imagination. After I received the three tormenting messages, I was feeling extremely heavy inside. Something was weighing me down that made me hard to relax. Sleeping was a challenge as I tried to exhale and inhale deeply but to no avail. I only managed to sleep after switching my thoughts to other topics simultaneously.

08/05/2010:

I was intending to use that day to recover, but after she initiated the chat, I decided that I cannot just ignore her.

09/05/2010:

Nevertheless, the first apology message does not seem to have any boost on my recovery. I wonder what happened to my recovery program...well for now, I will just let nature take its own course. For now, my energy is not replenishing quickly enough to sustain my chase. Hopefully, my recovery program will work in time. If not, I will just use up my remaining energy to last the chase...for...as long as...I can...

Labels: ACTS, S7

Posted - 11:32 PM